I was recently at a writer’s retreat in Vermont (at the Vermont College of Fine Arts), where I had the chance to spend five days working on Raise the Fallen from a writing room in the lower level of a haunted library. Alone in this small room, surrounded by books on theology, mysticism, and the occult, I sat down to work up more material on this series. What happened during these five days is that, I began to get to know these characters quite well, and see that heroes and villains as originally conceived were far more complex than I first had given thought to. I didn’t really know these characters until I started to learn some of their secrets. Everything I have written so far about them needed to be revised, redone, more stories in-between what I have written already need to be inserted. The first 46-pages of what I had offered here were a good outline, but they need to be revised, re-written, and re-explored and I don’t think that this online format allows for that sort of consistent work.
Also, I had the chance to gain valuable advice from the other novelists at the retreat, from the Novel teachers, and the advice I received was that this had to come off of public view and not make an appearance until it was solid, until it was complete, and until it was ready to be shown to an agent and/or publisher; at the very least, until I have a completed first novel, and not just 100-pages, a bare start, of where I intend to go with this series, until I have had a novel critique of a completed first draft, this public format isn’t really helping me. There is this aspect of the public, serial, novel that makes it feel like it’s not my own work, it belongs to a demanding public, and I WANT to give it to you, but I want to give it to you when it’s mine to give. Having all day off to write, think, wander, revise tripled the amount of pages I wrote for this story in just five days.
Another factor was monetization. I have to be honest, I work 60-70 hours a week, my health has been poor because of how much I work during the week, I commute 3-hours a day, five days a week, and then with housekeeping, family time, constantly recovering from being sick and not taking better care of myself, barely sleeping 6 hours a day, I don’t have the time to dedicate to writing that I would like to, that I really need to do this justice. I would LOVE to quit my day job, dedicate my time to writing this novel out full time (and by the way, if you are looking for a ghost writer, editor for your work, please contact me), but minus what I have paid into this site, I have made a total of $27 off of this site, that’s about 50 cents a page, or 12 cents an hour (in my day job I make $35 an hour). From a financial side, dedicating 2-3 hours a day to this story, with time I don’t have, for money I’m not making, doesn’t make sense, and I feel bad having this part-written, hardly revised, story out there that i want to share with you all, but that’s just not being done right….although, if you would like to buy stakes in this story, in its potential, give me the time I need to quit my job and write full time, I would gladly hear your offer.
So, I have removed all but one of the posts. I want there to be a presence of this story on here in case someone gets interested in sponsoring it, buying it, signing it. I am looking for an agent, a publisher, sponsors, so if the one piece I have left here interests you at all, please contact me. Again, if you need a ghost writer or professional editor for your own work, I am available for that as well.
In the meantime, I do have a blog that I recently started, pertaining to my wanderings, ramblings, insights, and experiences, so if you would like to see a more consistent (and ecstatic) example of my writing, please check out my blog here: http://darmorazzini.blogspot.com
Thank you for all your support so far. Until Raise the Fallen is complete, or signed, I will be restricting access to it.